Understand - Poem

Understand - Poem
Jensen "Jey" Bodholdt

He doesn't understand.
I'm not happy in my own skin.
He doesn't understand.
I hide my pain behind strange men.

He doesn't understand.
They don't want to be my friends anymore.
He doesn't understand.
I'm beaten down, fucked up, and poor.

He doesn't understand.
This bottle is my friend.
He doesn't understand.
I just want the pain to end.

He doesn't understand.
I've lost all reasons to live.
He doesn't understand.
I am too broken to love him.

He doesn't understand.
Why I'm always feeling down.
He doesn't understand.
Why I can't just stick around.

He doesn't understand.
He will never understand.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

I don't understand.
Why wasn't she happy?
I don't understand.
Didn't she know she could trust me?

I don't understand.
I still care about her.
I don't understand.
What happened to forever?

I don't understand.
She wouldn't stop drinking.
I don't understand.
She wouldn't stop cutting.

I don't understand.
We can never be together.
I don't understand.
I know in my heart I still love her.

I don't understand.
I'm sitting here staring at her grave.
I don't understand.
Why couldn't she have been saved?

I don't understand.
I will never understand.

I'll Miss You - Poem by Jey Bodholdt

You used to make my day feel so bright, 

But now that you're gone, nothing feels right. 

I tried so hard to replace you, 

Because what else could I do? 

I've looked and looked for reasons why, 

but nothing explains why you would leave my life. 

I know it's my fault, the reason you're gone, 

And I know in my heart I need to move on. 

Just know that every time I looked at you, my spirits grew higher, 

I'll miss you so much, my beloved, yellow lighter. 

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