Understand - Poem

Understand - Poem
Jensen "Jey" Bodholdt

He doesn't understand.
I'm not happy in my own skin.
He doesn't understand.
I hide my pain behind strange men.

He doesn't understand.
They don't want to be my friends anymore.
He doesn't understand.
I'm beaten down, fucked up, and poor.

He doesn't understand.
This bottle is my friend.
He doesn't understand.
I just want the pain to end.

He doesn't understand.
I've lost all reasons to live.
He doesn't understand.
I am too broken to love him.

He doesn't understand.
Why I'm always feeling down.
He doesn't understand.
Why I can't just stick around.

He doesn't understand.
He will never understand.

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I don't understand.
Why wasn't she happy?
I don't understand.
Didn't she know she could trust me?

I don't understand.
I still care about her.
I don't understand.
What happened to forever?

I don't understand.
She wouldn't stop drinking.
I don't understand.
She wouldn't stop cutting.

I don't understand.
We can never be together.
I don't understand.
I know in my heart I still love her.

I don't understand.
I'm sitting here staring at her grave.
I don't understand.
Why couldn't she have been saved?

I don't understand.
I will never understand.

The End - Poem by Jey Bodholdt

Can we talk about death for a moment?
A controversial subject, hard to discuss.
Few people stop to actually think about it.
But what's actually waiting for us?

Some people like what they've been told,
and spend their days trying to repent.
But what actually lies beyond our world?
What is really at the end?

What if death is dark?
What will we behold?
How will we know until we embark?
What if death is cold?

What if death is full of light?
I've heard something about gates of gold.
Will death bring Heaven cloaked in white?
Something like the stories that've been told.

But what if Heaven is not real?
How will we ever know?
The way to find out isn't ideal.
But eventually, we'll all go.

Death gives a mysterious impression.
Nothing more terrifies me.
Haunted by the lingering question,
What will actually be?

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